im almost twenty years old without a car. im in a pretty serious relationship with a boy that i love but at the same time cant stand. i have more responsibility in my life than i would like. i lie a lot so people find my life more interesting than it really is. i graduated high school over two years ago and i still have not gone to college and im terrible with money. i am a hopeless romantic with the biggest dreams and aspirations but my pessimism makes me give up before i even start. i wish i had the motivation to get through life.